After communion, I shut my eyes and knelt.
Five reasons my mom is awesome.
The babies are me, except for bottom right. That’s my mom, and – obvs – I am her clone. |
Arleen Spenceley, M.A.
I’ve written a lot on the blog about grad school already. This time, words aren’t necessary.
730+ recipients of doctoral and master’s degrees. I’ll buy dinner for the person who finds me. |
USF’s President Judy Genshaft and me on the Jumbotron. Photo courtesy of my dad. |
Not ready to let go, I wore the cap to dinner. Possibly also because nobody likes cap hair. |
Arleen Spenceley, MA #boom |
Thoughts on graduating.
And so I sit in a silent house, beside a dog whose slumber is disrupted by the nearby sound of somebody’s lawnmower.
Goodbye is a hard word.
I listened to a sad song on repeat on the parkway earlier.
It worked.
It worked because it dawned on me during class tonight that I have class only two more times. What has monopolized my time since 2009 in easy ways and hard is ending.
It’s ending in the best ways.
Tests from now on don’t have grades. All of them are open book. The books are cheaper. I can commit where I wouldn’t. I can sleep when I couldn’t. I am shifting from unable (to socialize, to read, to write) to able.
It’s ending in the worst ways.
I cried here. I laughed here. I grew (up) here. I am a little bit attached to here. There is comfort in the couch outside my adviser’s office. In the creased counseling magazines on coffee tables. In the classrooms where I learned everything I know (later to learn I kind of still feel like I sort of don’t know what I’m doing).
I am ready but not ready.
Happy but sad.
Goodbye is a hard word.